sheltered.

before this last month, I've been thinking that the current way my life looks will be the way it is for the next few years. which has been comforting. a little boring, but comforting. - 1. keep doing what I'm doing. 2. keep living where I'm living. 3. buy some art. - it's a pretty appealing plan, not going to lie. but then there's this other part of me that has been creeping in lately. I get lost in my own thought processes.

ex. 1: what if I live in this 3 bedroom townhouse but pay two people's rent so I can have a studio space? well, if I can do that, why not move to a 3 bedroom house, rent a room out, have a studio space and have a yard? well, why not move to a different city and buy a house and get a dog? okay.

ex. 2: what if I want to do freelance real estate marketing strategy from home some day? why not just make a social marketing business? why not just blog about designing rooms and building furniture and get paid to do that? okay.

ex. 3: what if I stayed in ames after my sister and todd leave for cedar falls? what if I moved to cedar falls? well if I'm going to move, why not move to san clemente? okay.

it's actually been a real struggle lately. trying to separate the dreams that I should go after and "hustle" (jon acuff) and the dreams that are selfish/ridiculous. I'm not searching for perfection in my life but also not wanting to waste opportunity. it doesn't help that I have to figure out my living situation by february 22nd to lease my current townhouse for august.

thoughts? best scenario? go!

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